Sunday, May 19, 2019

I Believe in God. Why is My Life Falling Apart?


THE OVERTURE

Your feet imprint the dirt path as you take each step across the plain. A dust devil swirls and lifts, then propels its load toward you. Jerking your arm up to protect your face has little effect. The sand is all. Filling your mouth, nostrils. Blinding with grit. Choking you with thirst.


Do you suppose this is part of Jesus’ experience when the Holy Spirit drives him into the wilderness? (Mk 1:12). Not guided. No suggested itinerary. But driven.
Driven to meet wild beasts. Hunger, Thirst. Loneliness. And after forty days and nights of this, comes temptation by the devil.
Apparently the Holy Spirit has no hesitation getting to the heart of the matter: Will you be true to the Lord your God, even when life gets impossible?
Because when you give your life to Christ, the Holy Spirit enters your being as the Father’s driving power.
The consequences are disconcerting. Uncontrollable, even. Frequently you are driven to face the force of a sandstorm. And stopped in your tracks.
This is not a life of obvious glory. 

Father, you say. How can I be in your will when my life is falling apart?
Finally, you wonder: Lord God, what do you really want from me?
Ah, replies the Holy Spirit. Thank you for asking. Please hear what is in my heart for you:
Ho, come! Thirst for me. Learn to know me as I know you. For if you surrender in your weakness, and love the Lord your God, I have the power to bless you with wholeness (Isaiah 55:1-2; 60:22).
Wholeness?
Yes. Wholeness.
Through my refining fire, grow more like Christ. More your own true self. Mature in loving God and others as you love yourself (Luke 10:27).
You pause. Then: I think I understand, Lord. You want me to confront myself, to assess my beliefs, and improve my relationships with others, and with God.
You recognize the challenge. You see there will still be tribulation. How else can one turn away from the human temptation of self will? Of sorting out how to live in a fallen world?
Yet you recall: When Jesus rebukes the devil, when he rejects the external temptations of glory, at last the angels come. The angels come and surround him. They minister to his needs and comfort him (Matthew 4:11).


Sent by the Father, through the power of the Holy Spirit.
The Holy Spirit, now part of your spiritual core, asserts power on your behalf.
All the while driving you deeper into the Trinity way.
The Triune God. Who will be taken seriously. Even in the 21st century.










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