Too great an emphasis on perfect faith actually blocks growth
instead of facilitating it, creating the unconscious expectation that without
perfect faith God will be disappointed and reject a person.
But God has more patience and
maturity than that, for as Jesus said, a tiny mustard seed of faith is sufficient
for the Lord to work within a person (Mt 17:20). The Trinity wants to help people
face, feel, and process their doubts, which in turn leads to greater faith.
Even John the Baptist, whom
Christ held in the highest regard, sent a messenger from his prison cell to ask
Jesus once again if in fact he was the Messiah. Jesus sent back the answer that
“the blind see, the lame walk, the lepers are cleansed, the deaf hear, the dead
are raised,” all signs from Isaiah’s prophecy attesting to the Messiah’s arrival
(Lk 7:22).
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| John the Baptist |
So if individuals are trusting
Christ for their right standing with God, then God makes room for occasional
doubts as they experiment with:
- how prayer does and doesn’t work
- what to do when they feel uninvolved in a worship service
- how to handle it when they can’t meet a homeless person’s needs
- what to do about behavior they feel is wrong but have to seek God’s help over months or years to overcome
Natural rhythms of faith and
doubt ultimately bring people closer to the Lord. For all the doubts they endure, although people can’t always hold onto
God, he nevertheless holds onto them. As Jesus promises, “No one can snatch
them out of my hand. My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all;
no one can snatch them out of my Father’s hand. I and the Father are one” (Jn
10:28-30).
During Christ’s ordeal, Peter
struggles with intense doubt about whether to claim friendship with Jesus or
deny knowing him. He temporarily opts for denial just when Jesus needs him
most. And after the resurrection, Peter reaches the point where he throws up
his hands and says, “Come on boys, let’s go back to Galilee and start fishing.”
He stands at the place all human beings know from time to time, even when they
also know and love the Lord, where life just does not make sense. There are too
many setbacks, too much confusion, and too little guidance from the Holy
Spirit.
But then it does make sense. For
Jesus follows his weary fishing crew to the Sea of Tiberius, and there he makes
a little campfire on the shore and grills some fish, shouting to Peter and the
others in the boat, “Have you caught anything yet?” (Jn 21:5).
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| Jesus Appears to the Disciples |
Peter starts to yell back that
the fishing is as dismal as his own life, when suddenly he recognizes Jesus and
dives headlong into the sea to swim ashore. The Bible says the disciples don’t
say much at that meal, perhaps too busy internally absorbing the rhythm of
doubt and faith, crisis and deliverance, self-consciousness and joy—and feeling
mostly awe, not only that they had been right in choosing to follow Jesus, but
that they had chosen, for the most part, to believe all he had told them.
Rather than trying to secure a
flawless platform of witness that one is adamantly Christian and proud of it, a
wiser stance might allow that all human beings, including one’s self, hold even
cherished beliefs somewhat precariously, and therefore stand in need of God’s
continuous provision to remain close to him.
Once persons accept that they are both strong and weak, hardy and frail, capable of moments of shimmering faith and times where all seems lost, then they can relax, breathe, and trust in God’s faithfulness and providential care. Add to this the hundreds of scriptures that attest to the transcendent power whereby God saves those who hide themselves in him, and people can enjoy a degree of equanimity, knowing that Christ is there for them in faith or doubt.
In seasons of celebrating God or
times of questioning, the “I AM” of God faithfully indwells the “i am” of the
believer. For the same Peter who denies even knowing the Lord, later writes to
all who would follow Christ, “Now for a little while you may have had to suffer
grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith—of greater
worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proved
genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed”
(1 Pet 1: 6-9).
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TRUSTING IN THE TRINITY:
A Self Compass for Humanity
